Arsip untuk Desember, 2008


Posted in Miscellaneous on Desember 1, 2008 by Sam Haidy

It is late at night. As usual, I’m still fully wide awake, doing everything and nothing at once: checking my social networking’s update, jump from one to another TV channel randomly, playing continuous football game on my cellphone, etc. That’s how I spend the time when most people are taking a leisure in the secret place somewhere else, having the best rest in their sleep. But here I am, senselessly trying to write down every single thing that disturb my mind.

Suddenly something pops up inside my head, forcing me to contemplate my fate from a deeper view: What kind of life I am living right now? How do I get here? Which direction I will be heading? What kind of future is waiting for me there? I just realized the importance of those questions, which will determine the purpose of my whole life. It makes me wonder: How could I never take them seriously before? I used to be an ignorant person, letting everything passes without trying to seize something from it. My dreams are leading me to nowhere, only a bunch of silly ambitions that find no embodiment in reality.

Is it too late for me to start all over again? Have I wasted my precious time?

(Ciamis, December 2nd 2008, 02.45-03.35 a.m)